A mothers love…. Don't mistake how impactful it is! (Martha Kent 121349-110808)
There is pain we all go through in life… some is for the purpose to heal! Other parts cause us more pain. And we wonder how we ever got to that place. I will tell you the most important thing to do in this existence is to love like you have no tomorrow.. and do your best to not hurt anyone for any reason. That pain is the hardest to let go of… especially if you realize you are responsible to admit your mistakes and surrender to them. Time is all you have when it comes down to healing.. it is the only way to find your spirit.. the only way to begin the healing of love. You don’t have to be a victim and if you feel you are.. totally surrender to that feeling. It is the way to the heart that let’s the mind calm… the soul to begin and take over all that is within you. I suppose to fly in the clouds we must first find away to take those running steps before the cliff that leads to the skies. We run from that which we know will be letting go and having faith… I wish to fly again in my dreams… been along time…
I guess you can say my mother grounded me… but she said I would need to stay grounded awhile longer.. The grief I felt the last couple of days of her passing was great and still it lingered for months thereafter.. yet now it lingers for the touch she gave to all the lives she was within.. to include my own.. she is my hero.. and I know where she is.. she is continuing that legacy and also watching over us to know the choices we make.. the things we do.. the things we need to heal from and the part of ourselves we no longer are going to hide in the dark from.
I feel at peace… I feel content.. and I feel her presence in the place I needed it most my heart. I am missing you mom! I am missing you everyday! I know you speak to me, and I hear you words of what it is I must do.. and what I must find within myself. For that I am eternally within your love. I even realize I can stand on my own two feet taking flight when I allow my energy to remember all the love you gave me. I realize I can be the man who you said I can be and beyond.
Don’t divide yourself between who, what, when and where… rather divide yourself from what is pain and love… chose a side! I have… it is the only thing I have never tried! until now!