Entering the door to forgiveness….
Kind of heart…
You ever felt so restless you wondered what it was that was inside you that needed to be resolved and have no idea where to begin or how to solve the riddles of the heart?
Recently I came to a conclusion that although the healing process takes it’s place within us we often are left with a now what place inside that keeps us from ever truly celebrating that we are healing the best we can. Even in that healing you will find that you are still seen with damaged eyes by those that witnessed your pain and your turmoil and they seem to almost make sure you know that they are still hurt by your actions and your lack of living in a way that is hurtful to others. I get it and I understand it, it comes with the deciding factor that it will take them to watch you to see how you healed.
Subtle hints as this awakening happen often can be confusing to those that stand around you and state I know you and I know how you are.. As though the time stood still and you are never going to change because of the design they will have in their eyes of you as much of you with them. This change is important not because it wants to take you back but because it wants you to let go of the sight you gave yourself in the first place to be that way. This is when if you love something set it free comes into existence.
Forgiveness doesn’t come with a price it is the only thing in this world that is free, it is how you swallow the pains with it that will determine the collateral damage that is done with it as the price. What if you didn’t have to deal with the damage of it? What if you didn’t have to try and change everyones outlook of you? Well this is the reason for this post.
When you become full of forgiveness you have only one true choice in that forgiveness and that is to see with the eyes that everyone around you has it to. It is how compassionately you listen to them to see it from them and how you will react to it. You don’t need to stir up the fight, only surrender to it. In this way you are not causing resistance to allow the healing to begin to find an end.
Don’t worry they will test your limits in this forgiveness for they always will be able to find those buttons in you that are able to turn you from forgiving to enraged… A door bell can be changed in the inner workings of what sets you off.
When someone comes to the door and rings a door bell.. Sometimes the door bell will ring to loud, or the chime becomes annoying.. So the rewiring that I would do would be inside of the door bell itself.
If I decided that the door bell didn’t ring the way I wanted, would this be what i should do? Placing a note on the door that says Out of order will not stop someone from trying to see if it will still work..
I should realize that someone pressing that button regardless has nothing to do with me other than my attention being called to the present moment of them being at my door pushing a button that doesn’t work or works in a horrible sounding way.
The internal workings of the door bell are in place to say someone is here, wake up, or come an answer the door.. How I open the door could be my frustration of what time it is that I am being called upon, could be they didn’t see the sign that I was unavailable at the moment. It could also be that I am just irritated that the door bell is just annoying as I haven’t gotten around to fixing it yet. Do you see the purpose of this is setting the stage of what we see in a setting that is either already disruptive cause I hadn’t gotten around to make the sound either be something I am open to, or something I am just fed up with..
Either way it is how I answer the door under those circumstances that truly will either have them ring that bell again or come right in, or be able to determine by the looking to see if someone is home first. Then maybe calling before they come and me saying come right in and make yourself at home..
Either way it is a door of karmic energy that allows either the flow of love to come in or the flow of love to come out.. What I change in the door bell to sound like, can be inviting, or be something to fear when I answer the door…
Those that knock and don’t ring the door bell are always looking for something on the other side.. they don’t truly get the significance for the bell or what it means especially if I have changed it to a sound that is satisfying to me.
The truth of what is behind the door can be whatever I am, in that I am… If I have something behind that door that I don’t want you to know of.. I am going to be protective.. If I have something behind that door that hurts me, you won’t know it unless you are knocking and ringing the door bell without knowing I am in there and don’t like the sound of either…
Are you sure you haven’t moved into the right home for you yet.. well this is the vacant lot of new homes for you to build upon here with whatever foundation you decide to build on.. The foundation is your love, the door you make is yours.. It can be made of glass or steel.. The choice of what you want as your door bell is yours.. And which ever one you pick will be exclusive to you filled with whatever you want others to find on the other side…
Do you see how powerful this message was, in what it means to have someone Push your buttons? How do you change your door bell is on you, and your perception of what your bell should sound like!