Trust in your life? Healing series March week 3 2014
As a child I always trusted in everything, as I did this it was abandoned in nature, I cried a lot, not because I was abandoned by anyone in truth, but because my thought process betrayed me and I trusted that it would.
No matter how deep you see into what you experience, or did experience, or what is to experience, you will lose something in yourself that doesn’t keep you planted in yourself. You can feel the trust escape in this way. You trust you will experience everything that is harmful to your being human..
Being human…. How do you trust being human when you trust in a way that is only going to give you what you ask for in trust. You trust you will be alone, you trust that you will be enraged, you trust that you will be without, and then all of that manifest itself to give you what you asked for in the first place.
When you say you just want to be happy do you trust this? Do you just go into the present moment and elect in trust to be happy? Do you feel trust is always a moment away or that it was something you had back then? What is trust defined as?
As a noun it is ….. a firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of someone or something.
As a verb it is….. Believe in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of.
Although it seems it is action, it is an energy! How does trust become energy, really go into this here for this is the awakener that we found we didn’t even pay close enough attention to as we thought we were losing our minds. When you lie inside you then become immersed in what that lie is not protecting, it is not protecting you or protecting those that love you. You hurt inside because of this and you don’t trust what the truth can give you!
Let me give you something that I trusted inside myself.. and you tell me what choices you would have made. I trusted that I was always going to get hurt by others, I trusted they were hearing me, but not listening.
Even the core of why I found myself which this inside my deep love I have for the love of my life, made statements to me, to challenge my trust to challenge, what I was feeling. “My love is even a part of this, she said to me “Clark! You are up here! And the rest of us are down here!”
This was said to me over and over as I had started to find my awakening. It hurt, not because I thought I was higher or embracing a higher self, or lower self than what was outside me to now be awakened by interactions, but because I was waking up rapidly and my trust was expanding inside me. The things that were said would hurt me, and I would think in ego to become quite frustrated. Not seeing it was ego in hurt, as a defense of trust saying, I couldn’t be heard… and I trusted it completely. I trusted I would be better off keeping my awaking to myself in silence. I tried to contain what I was going through, I tried to explain what the pain was inside of me, and as I continued on my path I realized I wasn’t doing anything with the trust in what I was experiencing an allowed myself to trust in completely.
I did realize that I couldn’t see higher or lower, all I could see was what was within… I trusted what I was experiencing in that moment as I do now.. What was in that, what is seen as higher is unattainable what is seen as lower is easier to go to, yet it gives you the outside view of the truth. What could I trust by finding what most call the higher self.. I trusted that going inside was the truth to what this was. I trusted that the answers coming from me where the truth about this thing that most need to attain to be.
I didn’t need to come to a higher way of thinking, I went into A inner part of being.
I could see that this was there as a truth to be something more, it was the undiscovered places inside of us that we aren’t paying attention to, to trust. I trusted in my own pain, I trusted I needed to go into the pain to see what it was,
I trusted in my desire to find the depth of love, only to realize it goes deeper than we can see cause we are beings of trust, who trust out, not trust in! If you haven’t seen the connection to how you trust in yourself vs what you trust outside yourself,
What would you trust in you as a human being here to dive into something within you that calls to you?
Well Clark, how does one go to a path no one is talking about doing?
How much attention is paid to how you trust your heart will keep beating in this moment? How much love is that capable of to do that very thing?
To answer the simple question, What is trust if you don’t have it in your life? This question is false in you…
You trust that you can read this and you do! You trust you will get to something and you do! You trust your heart will continue to give you unconditional love and it does, for you wouldn’t be able to read this right now and say wait a minute do I trust deeper than I think.
The answer is YES!
Your knowing knows this, and it trust it will wake you to the depth that what you say in words will not impact the unconditional love your heart will give you when you stop and pay close attention even the pain that can be felt from thinking will lessen when you focus the energy of trust that your heart is giving you in all moments.
Isn’t that the source of where trust derives from in the first place?
Isn’t it the source of all?
Powerful awakening of what happens to our core when we trust inside ourselves! Watch below!