What makes us cheat?

If you are dominated by the mind you will then elect to be dominated in the terms of the mind.. This doesn’t select whether you are a man or woman.. you are electing to not listen inside yourself and hence are disconnected in form.. you will then seek out a relationship that will keep you open to non committal of self.. It isn’t about the other person not meeting needs not meeting how you feel.. it is about you not meeting them within yourself!  This is all false that someone else is responsible for keeping your happiness, you are more than your incessant need to feel a second of bliss.. the thrill in excitement of doing something taboo is a thought process of never seeing yourself. It is a choice. So as I see the statistics I feel that it is a percent of choice. Not a choice of yourself but of not going within so you will never be without!

The SECRET to beyond a happy relationship!

I suppose if you are not present and make it about time, you will miss the trueness of the soul that you are connected to and aren’t interacting with. If at some point we elect to evolve and not require thought to create separateness we will continue to be alone as the mind makes this about loneliness and a never ending search to make another responsible for that loneliness rather than seeing choice… When you make this about being alone it is a dooming feeling that can’t be removed cause we fail to see choice in what we chose. If you don’t make your relationship within yourself a meditation that is shared you miss the choice to be connected with another and expand love beyond… Hence you play a role of I will be who I am and you will be who you are.. Separated again without any chance of expansion inside of self… This already has shown it will last a few hours, a few weeks and maybe a few years, It seems that we have lost the ability to go beyond and evolve, How can we make a connection of this experience if we continually gravitate away from this very thing. Maybe it is time to realize choice? We do have one.. If I went this direction leaving thought behind wouldn’t that create the same very explosion that created us all? Are we too busy thinking and not sharing enough to realize we can be more than we continue in the current course we make it out to be?

It takes no thought to be connected what else takes away the honeymoon feeling.. The bliss of love is not taken as permanent because we are taught that it requires thought? Your thoughts? Your feelings? are you sure this is the right path??? Are you sure it takes being trapped in your mind to be with another? what if you decide to grow? what if you decide to change the role by eliminating it? What if you realize this role your playing is not wanting to be played anymore which always seems to happen? There is no director to say cut you forgot your lines when you are in a relationship with another unless you seek therapy…. I am sure that I can no longer chose to be in this experience without being connected!!! To no longer have alone thought separation from her.. She is with me more inside and I have a strength that goes beyond any opposites because of it to include these words of truth within me.. When do we chose to believe it is no longer about time and make it about connection as a whole?

What is Bliss? Can you obtain it? Is it possible?

Are you upset or angry or even confused about something??? Do you find yourself tossing and turning through the night wondering about things that happened that day or something that will happen the day to come… may I ask you why you would do such a thing? do you understand that it isn’t you that is doing this.. it is your mind.. it has control of you… You will be trapped!

I was asked recently if I was blissfully happy??? It is hitting me days later to realize what I was being asked… I was still trapped in my mind.. in some places I still am but the door is open.. but to be blissfully happy you have the core of you speaking in volumes of a love inside that is no longer selfish… no longer self containing… I answered this question when asked so fast I didn’t truly understand what was being asked of me.. the me in the center.. the me that is asking for the growth to be forever…

I know the eternal love I keep inside me.. is it able to grow to something more than I ever known to be possible.. would I be able to embrace such a place that I would be able to give it to my son or allow my son to ever know that is it possible.. am I detaining this from him cause I don’t have it myself.. Much talks have happened throughout the past year with my spirit guide.. she has asked me repeatedly am I able to be blissfully happy???  She has even seen a beyond blissful place within me.. I didn’t want to hear it.. I couldn’t the mind noise in my head was too loud Thoughts)!!!!

I am no longer supposed to feel the alternate reality of a life that isn’t me being incredibly happy.. but incredibly at peace with something so wonderful going on inside me that I glow and those around me can feel this glow and start mini fires to the lives I touch to become a fire of all their own…

The spirit world calls to me… something that she has been saying all along is something in me that realizes she would never cause me to purposefully think about what I am doing.. she was calling to what I feel.. the center of me.. I am sorry my friend for not trusting in your guidance.. I am sorry for not seeing the truth for what you could see… we both were fooled… You weren’t speaking to my thoughts really.. you never were.. You were speaking to my soul.. but it was being blocked defensively by my thoughts.. the protector of my soul… but protection from what? from myself… a myself that I don’t even know.. I know this isn’t speaking human.. but to me it is how I understand why I made the choices I made…

Can the light of heaven be something I can reach.. will the clouds finally separate and allow me the beyond bliss that my soul calls too… can the demons of my thoughts finally be gone? I can give up that which I was told to give up.. which I was told to not hold onto.. I realized I am supposed too… Not question it any longer.. Just let go… Let it all go… Finding that my smile can light up even the darkest of places… it is the flashlight to open the dark…

Realize deeply that the present moment is all you ever have.

Your never alone… all you have to do is…

The whole premise of no longer being alone is that some one out their truly connects to us an is so connected that an energy of what can change your life, wake you up, and also allow the capacity of love to be greater in you than ever before.  I have seen this and even know that there is a glimpse of this surreal energy out there.  A glimpse, yes all dreams at some point you have to wake up and allow what is before you to be seen with pure eyes, pure heart, pure soul, and pure love.  You get this from understanding that not everything is as it seems and that even that which you felt so strongly about in the first place was so real.  You then understood that you would even stay where you didn’t feel wanted, you didn’t feel loved, you were left alone to defend yourself to grow and be as you are.  I used to be in that place.. and I am sure I understand that what goes around comes around.  I am content with knowing that is my destiny, that this is my creed, Unhappiness is a form of being that can find it’s way directly to peace cause it understands unhappiness is a form of unsettled peace that is within you.  I wish to be full of this very peace, to be full of this very place that has calmness,  that sees no need to fooling what the eyes don’t hide from any longer.
.. ..
Every experience is new as this moment and the next are not known nor will they ever be.  The energy that can be flowed with when this comes to light is something unseen as it is always been ignored.  The mind doesn’t like you to be in the moment for in the moment you are protected from certain truths if you are not present. Never again! Never!

The choice to heal to become enlightened!

Are you upset or angry or even confused about something??? Do you find yourself tossing and turning through the night wondering about things that happened that day or something that will happen the day to come… may I ask you why you would do such a thing? do you understand that it isn’t you that is doing this.. it is your mind.. it has control of you… You will be trapped!

 

I was asked recently if I was blissfully happy??? It is hitting me days later to realize what I was being asked… I was still trapped in my mind.. in some places I still am but the door is open.. but to be blissfully happy you have the core of you speaking in volumes of a love inside that is no longer selfish… no longer self containing… I answered this question when asked so fast I didn’t truly understand what was being asked of me.. the me in the center.. the me that is asking for the growth to be forever…

 

I know the eternal love I keep inside me.. is it able to grow to something more than I ever known to be possible.. would I be able to embrace such a place that I would be able to give it to my son or allow my son to ever know that is it possible.. am I detaining this from him cause I don’t have it myself.. Much talks have happened throughout the past year with my spirit guide.. she has asked me repeatedly am I able to be blissfully happy???  She has even seen a beyond blissful place within me.. I didn’t want to hear it.. I couldn’t the mind noise in my head was too loud Thoughts)!!!!

 

I am no longer supposed to feel the alternate reality of a life that isn’t me being incredibly happy.. but incredibly at peace with something so wonderful going on inside me that I glow and those around me can feel this glow and start mini fires to the lives I touch to become a fire of all their own…

 

The soul inside the spirit world calls to me… something that she has been saying all along is something in me that realizes she would never cause me to purposefully think about what I am doing.. she was calling to what I feel.. the center of me.. I am sorry my friend for not trusting in your guidance.. I am sorry for not seeing the truth for what you could see… we both were fooled… You weren’t speaking to my thoughts really.. you never were.. You were speaking to my soul.. but it was being blocked defensively by my thoughts.. the protector of my soul… but protection from what? from myself… a myself that I don’t even know.. I know this isn’t speaking human.. but to me it is how I understand why I made the choices I made…

 

Can the light of heaven be something I can reach.. will the clouds finally separate and allow me the beyond bliss that my soul calls too… can the demons of my thoughts finally be gone? I can give up that which I was told to give up.. which I was told to not hold onto.. I realized I am supposed too… Not question it any longer.. Just let go… Let it all go… Finding that my smile can light up even the darkest of places… it is the flashlight to open the dark…

 

Realize deeply that the present moment is all you ever have.

How deep is your love? does it point to here?

When the Gods from beyond the universe created the universes to cover the space.. That was there intention on creating something that we call life… The strange part is how did they determine what should be made.. what should be life.. what should it come from.. well.. When you give it this much to really feel….. you realize that something more magical had to happen.. how man and women were created what brought this about.. what took this and made life something more than it was supposed to be… well… God talked to all the angels and took the glow of energy that was inside them and some who were actually connected at a deeper level and created all that we know as life.. interesting as though what we call soul mates came from this very place.. the same energy that was connected was placed inside of us; Actually not placed but already there from the very first part of life when we took air in and out for the very first time.. and somewhere on this planet souls wander aimlessly trying to find that very thing… mind you it isn’t what you think is your soul mate.. this term used so lightly that it doesn’t make much sense as to say you are looking, wanting, needing your soul mate.. The actual thing about this is your soul mate is connected directly to you.. no matter if you ever meet in the physical sense.. you are connected by the bounds of the same energy that created the universes.. A heart felt feeling that really is the reason that you can smile.. you can cry.. you can be angry.. you can feel all that they can feel.. it is not the same as feeling something physically… it is something more than that.. how do you find this within you to realize you don’t need to search for something that you carry with every bit of life you have.. How do you know if you will ever find this?  you look inside you.. answers come when you are true to yourself and you are true to all that which created the human heart… That same respect should be given if you are ever fortunate enough to find that which has never been lost.. Tragic that we keep making choices to be with those that never touch our hearts enough to understand this level of beyond love feeling that is supposed to be above the earth to bring us life.. we wait.. we drown.. we let our thoughts invade us to take us away from that very place that brings us peace.. that brings us beyond love..  What matters most to us is not who will win the election.. how we are going to die.. or how we are going to get bills paid.. but something more about what love we should have within our lives.. If you live alone.. or with your kids… or even if you are having a rough time in your marriage.. be honest with what you have inside you.. that speaks volumes to the soul.. and it also speaks volumes to the soul mate that you carry within you!  Be true to thyself and thyself shows you the truth.. God’s place of heaven is in each of us.. so let Go.. and Let God…

Depth how do you chose to….

I had lived almost 30 something years of my experience here as a human being.. doing things by thought rather than by something unimaginable.. I realized that this was not something that I chose it was something that I created by logic… My father was of the mind… and my mother of the heart… Two opposites that found each other and stayed together for a time to open a gateway for myself and my sister to come.  They shared a great love but when it came down to the mind and heart… They were always separate.  I can speak about what I was then but not at this time.. I was more typical than a typical male with no conscience, not able to trust anyone yet I had something in me that was killing me.. I was always on the edge of a dark side that for some reason my heart wouldn’t let me go all the way to.. It was like a barrier between the point of no return vs past it..

Everyday of my experience now is filled with magic.. with messages, with a deeper place of being awake some call this a deeper level of consciousness.  I can’t claim it for it to be something to challenge.. I don’t understand challenge all I can see is the light in everything.. Every lesson deep with something of more depth for me to experience.

For a few years in rebirth I dreamed of a lake that also seemed at times to be an ocean.. As I became truth.. Which meant no more hiding from myself or anyone else.. I emerged a different light that covered this lake or ocean.. At times I would be on the top of the water being roughed around by the waves.. And every time I would start to sink.. I would wave my arms feverishly trying to stay afloat..  And I would wake up feeling that I would have drowned in my sleep..  This went on for some time.. It seemed the more drama that was in my experience the worse the waters would be and then other things would try and take me down..  All of this seemed to be something that just kept happening to me over and over..  night after night.. After about a year or so of this.. I realized I no longer could take it anymore.  I started to learn to meditate and started to experience great light when I would go deep enough.. When I say deep enough it is to give you a perception of what I experienced.  However the way to explain this to make sense of it to human form.

One night I dreamed I was back at the same lake.. It seemed calm.. and it seemed as though no movement was able to be seen.  If you ever seen still water this is the exact way this looked.  I decided I was going to go to it.. As I got up close to the water I noticed it was very blue.  I looked around and saw a park bench and a very large tree.. It was magnificent in size..  And it spoke in wind motions the more I looked at it the more I realized it was talking utilizing the wind..

It asked me to go into the water.. I said I am scared… it said “of what?”  I couldn’t answer cause it seemed as though I had no concept of thought.. It was then that I jumped in… I didn’t question!  I didn’t even have a thought.  As I got in I was quickly moved to the center as though something had guided me.. When I got out there.. I started to sink.. as I did I could feel my body wanting to fight to shrug to go back to shore.. But something just said let go… As I did I went under the water.. I went all the way down.. it seemed that I was just going and going.. the more I looked down the darker it became.. It was then that I realized it was not just deep it was very calm.. I became amazed at how much I was able to see, hear, smell, touch, and remarkably taste.. I didn’t feel lost anymore.. I didn’t feel scared anymore.. As I finally reached a lower level it seemed to be a ledge which I could go even deeper if I chose.. and then another and then another… That night was the most remarkable sleep I ever had.. When I woke up things were very vibrant… things were very alive.. I could hear things I never heard, I could feel things I never felt, I could experience a sound that was more silent yet I knew something was truly embraced within me..

I can only tell you from this experience that I was touched deeply to the core and realized that my core was my calling.. Inside of it.. I could hear her and even more than that I could hear myself.. Not my thoughts but something deeper in me.. I became both that night.. I could experience both sides.. The woman who creates… a man who creates.. both simultaneously..  I could see the roots from the big tree that stood alive and communicating with me without thought placed expression.. A light that continued to get only brighter because I surrendered to not just the unreal pain I was within that killed me, but that it was there that I could let go.. All messages are available to you.. You can see it around you! You can feel it…

We are all connected.. You can reach a depth with another it is why you ascended.. some have their whole soul complete and do different things.. Yet those that seek companionship there is a greater thing in you that will bring this to you when you truly go inside yourself and just surrender.. Answers are not out of your reach.. They are a part of your destiny.. Just allow yourself to hear it.. no fear!

And always know the present moment is all you ever have!

First time love…

The first time I loved forever was when you whispered my name.
And I knew at once you loved me for the me of who I am.
The first time I loved forever I cast all else aside.
And I bid my heart to follow, be there no more need to hide.
And if wishes and dreams are merely for children, and
if love’s a tale for fools,
I’ll live the dream with you.
For all my life and forever, there’s a truth I will always know.
When my world divides and shatters, your love is where I’ll go.

love unknown…

Essence of true love…

what if tomorrow came and not only did what you felt at this present moment show you the cards of the hand it was playing poker with were shown but you realized you lost everything… would you panic? would you be devastated? would you be angry? would you feel deceived? Or would you realized the inner peace you found before in this quest is all that mattered.. nothing that would make you age! Nothing that would make anything matter.. Just able to now realize you carry a touch that is 5000 fold over what you had before… when does it matter? why does it matter? not so much because no one can actually hear you… but you can now touch and see yourself like never before…

Breathe in every moment… it is all that is real… the intelligence you use to do everything else.. so why create something that is not real… just be you.. the essence of true love.. the essence of the miracle that is you!

I hope this finds you still dreaming that what lies before you is a mere dream.. nothing more… live in your dreams for they are the truth.. anything else will be sadness beyond your dreams…

One last thing… Happiness is emotional… Inner peace is not.. live with what you can live with because all other things are just that… other things! Inner peace needs only one thing… Inward sight and Inward acceptance.. nothing can take that away from you ever!