Losing My Mind. Coming To My Senses.
Just one year ago this month, I thought I was losing my mind. I had no doubts whatsoever.
Today, I now know that I did lose my mind, but it has come back. And it is back more clear and strong than ever. I know my purpose and have to give thanks where thanks is due.
You see, the person who walked into my life and turned everything upside down is the same person who introduced me to the Twin Flame concept. I had not heard of it before and was really clueless. Some days I still feel clueless.
So, I did a lot of reading, trying to figure out what the heck was going on. Why did I have these intense feelings? Why was I awake in the middle of the night getting on Facebook to connect with this person when they were messaging me at the same time? Why did I feel like I had been electrocuted when we were near each other? Why, oh why, did this person feel like there was a magnet pulling me to them? Why does the mirror bring such strong triggers?
My “Aha” Moment
I was directed to a YouTube video that Lee and Sherry had done. I was immediately hooked. I had to know more. More about this dynamic and more about them. I watched a lot of their videos and it helped me. Fortunately for me, I lived pretty close to them and sent them an email to see if we could meet, kind of like a free 30 minute session. The minute they walked into the place we were meeting, I just about cried. I knew in that instant that I had to work with them. It was like YES!!!! They know and can help me.
So, I jumped into Root Camp. I had no idea what I was getting into… but every single moment, every tear shed and every hard knock down was worth it. I would sometimes drive down to their house and sit at their table with them and Big Mike. Let me tell you, there is no fooling Lee or Sherry. But in person, there really is NO FOOLING them. They picked up on all of my crap, and I was ready to be real. I told them things I would never have dreamed sharing with other people. And believe me, I had not told my traditional therapist about the stuff I told them. They got it, they had been through it too.
Getting Comfortable Being Uncomfortable… And Becoming Comfortable
As a Root Camp client, I had to be ready to be real. Real with myself. The questions were asked in such a perfect way, but let me say that you have to want to do the work. To look inside with honesty of self. If you want to spew lies and non truth then you will not benefit from any type of Root Camp, therapy or coaching. Just won’t happen. It is about being truthful with yourself. And learning that your mind and ego have had their way with you, that you can get past the blocks when you open up and be real, and truthful.
Root Camp under my belt, I learned more about myself than any other time in my life. That is long time, since I am almost 50.
About a week after I finished Root Camp, I saw a post from Relationship Reinvented about them starting a new coaching program. It took me about a day to decide if I was right for it, and if it was right for me. I literally jumped in. With both feet.
I have never looked back or had a moment of regret. Now as a Relationship Reinvented Certified Life and Spiritual Coach I look back at what I have learned over the last year and see how much growth there has been. I have benefitted as a human being by learning what I have done to deal with pain, to cover it over and allow myself to live with self deceits. I have learned about people and how we all have core wounds, and where they come from, and how to look within. I have been given the gifts of unconditional love and truth. Being a coach has been the culmination of my life’s journey, as a prior teacher, nurse, mom and caregiver.
Helping Others Find Their Truth
It is an honor to be a coach with Relationship Reinvented, to be asked by someone who is in pain to walk with them, to help them on their journey. To hold them in no judgement and hear them. To be with them as they learn and grow. The gift of sharing and seeing the inner truth as it comes out. To hear the pain in someone’s voice transform to the acceptance and light that shines from within when they learn that they are love, unconditional love. That this journey is about self and not twin. Twin is in your life to teach you, to lead you back to you. Triggers are gifts. It is all a gift back to love. The purpose of humankind is to love each other. For all of this I am deeply grateful to Lee and Sherry who lived their journey, put it out into public for all to see and grow from, who hear the call to share and love deeply.
The gratitude I feel for them is deep. Yet, I also feel deep gratitude for myself. I took a risk, jumped into the unknown and allowed myself to be real. I now have the tools to get back on track when I stumble, and know that if I can do it, you can do it if you are willing to do the work. Any one of the coaches at Relationship Reinvented can help you on your journey. Find one that fits with you and give it a try.
Doesn’t it get weary carrying a sack of lies and crap on your back when you have the inner light that flickers that there is another way? As Lee says, “you can’t hear truth when you are making up crap in your own mind”. THAT is the purpose of Root Camp, to take everything that is not truth out of your mind and put back the the light and the truth, the love that you came here with and that you are.