You are never without me…
The doorway to healing… You may be going through things in your life.. always giving to others always trying to protect or do the right thing even when it feels you may be doing the wrong thing. Sometimes we make choices and live a certain way because of things we will never get passed really.
Why I am going here is important, and it is for the reason that someone has never reached inside you, and told you what I am going to do at this time.
For all the innocence in you that had never had anyone to hear you, I am here to tell you that you are going to be loved beyond love from me.. The pain that has been stuck in you, to be relived in your nightmares, in your thoughts, and the misbelief that no one was there to hear your screams and believe in you knowing you needed help, you needed to be protected, you needed someone to hold you through your screams….
I know you went through such things when you were a child, when you were a teen and how it placed a thread in you to become the person identified inside as you became an adult based on this fabric. So many moments have passed by no one told you that you were going to be ok, only you inside your mind, no one told you that you were special, only you did at that moment, and then you felt scared cause you believed in something no one could seem to understand or hear, and no one was there to protect you, no one was there to tell you why you placed your trust there, only to have it destroyed repeatedly and then you found something in you, that seemed to want to protect yourself and everything in your sight to be something that you could believe, you had to protect, and guard, and hide.
You have suffered long enough, the pain you keep inside, I am sorry that it happened.. I am sorry it took you this long to find this, and know that inside me I am truly sorry, and I am always going to listen to you, and that you no longer need to hide from the lies that you are not more… you are indeed more….. No matter what you had experienced, no matter what pains you kept to make the decisions you made, I am here, and I will always be here. I will always give you all the love I have in me to make sure you have the path to heal through this. Not because I listened and understood your pain, but because I have lived it by touching in you all the pain that one can endure in this existence.
You lost this innocence, and I am here to help you reclaim it through holding you through it all, touching you through it all… giving you silence when you need it, and giving you a kiss when it no longer seems that you can even feel yourself, cause of the numbness of facing it all.
In ones existence here they will have a heartbeat that beats for the entire time they are here. Each beat gives them the opportunity to love deeper than they did the moment before if they can stay in sync with it paying closer attention to it. It gives this beat as long as we are here. We forget this, mainly cause of what we see on the outside of ourselves. We lose this path to that feeling of knowing it is real, cause others who we see on the outside don’t stop to feel their own. Yet, when you take the time, and stop and realize it, you know that you are connected to everyone else and everything else.
I am connected to you and I want you to know everything I am.. the love that is my energy is yours combined to make it ours. To heal through, to fight through, to pain through, to laugh through, to embrace not just those things in you that you feel locked away into, but beyond that.
I am here to let you know that true love is real. It is real in me as much as it is real watching a sunset or sunrise and knowing the beautiful places that can also be tragic are love to.
You can’t be lost when you reach out, and I will grab your hand, it is not being lost when you can feel that. Even if we don’t know where we are. What matters most is this very thing. It doesn’t require you to think about what I am saying here. You should feel the tears come from me as I pledge to you writing this that your tears are combined now.. they have a light all to their own. It is releasing as long as you hold me tighter through the tears you feel in knowing that I can hear you.
There will never be a time that I am not connected to you, there will never be a time that I am not in sync with you. I will be completely connected to you beyond any place, form or realm. Freed is the body you may move in, as the soul comes through to finally realize it is not protected from what can be judgement, persecution, cautious behavior, torture from others who were supposed to love and protect you.
I will always be that shield for you although it may seem I am not there in the physical, but I am always there inside you to be stronger than you were without me. It is not in ego that you keep me, for that will always make you hear something the mind will say. You now can speak out loud inside and I will hear you. I will heart you.. I will embrace you.
I will always be here inside you.. not just to know you are, but because you are.
If I never made the pledge you would not know I was here.